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When Worlds Collide People Like Me Happen


04 Aug

I suppose that I should begin this by apologizing… I know, I know, it’s been a while since my last blog. Well, there are a few reasons for that. The first being that French is a very time consuming and headache inducing language. The headache only grows when your getting a grade for something. Well, that’s about it for excuses, besides the normal chaos that I always write during.

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Recently I had one of those teary-eyed nostalgic moments. Surprisingly enough it was during the movie Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. It always surprises me how attached to this series I am. I didn’t start reading them when they originally came out, it was probably closer to the release of the third book that I engrossed myself in the world of Hogwarts. I’m not sure if this is a problem or not, but I have an obsession with this series that borders ridiculous.

When I read the Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone I cried for Hagrid when Norbert had to be taken to Ron’s brother in Romania. In Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban I nearly threw the book at the wall for Harry when all of his hopes of leaving the Dursley’s was crushed because of Peter-freaking-Pettigrew. When Sirius died in Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix , I felt like a little light went out inside me.

You may think I’m being over-dramatic, but you can ask anyone who knows/knew me at the time that I was reading these books. Even now, I can quote most of the movies because any time I am up moving around I either have the movies on or the audio books playing. My fiancee has practically threatened to take away my movie choosing privileges because I always choose Harry Potter.

I actually took one of those silly facebook quizzes titled: Which Harry Potter Character Are You, and I bet you’ll never guess who it was. I was totally

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Hermione Granger. It really fits me perfectly. =) There are a lot of things I remember about Harry Potter. I remember my first release party at Barnes & Noble with my Aunt Niki and Aunt Paula. There are so many memories that I have involving HP. For the release of the seventh and final volume in the series, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows , I was leaving Ireland, so for eight blissful hours I read, slowly savoring every page, the whole book.

So what is the point of all this bantering on and on about books that I love? Well, this is the series that did it for me. This is the series that has led me to be an English major and Creative Writing minor. This is the series that has given me a love for the written global-common-159x159-boy-reading-harry-potter-ents-snapshots-005.jpg word and the printed page.

More than anything in the world I want to be a writer. I want to live that lifestyle, to be the one that creates worlds for the imaginations of everyone. One day, I want one of my worlds to influence just one person the way that Harry Potter has influenced me.

So I leave you with this: Did you have a similar experience with a book or series of books? If so what is it? Tell me in my comments!

CC

I Thought It Would Be Different…


19 Jul

 

My First Week as an Intern

 


The first day of my intern I was a complete bundle of nerves. I knew it was going to be a long and tiresome day, so I prepared myself in advance with as little sleep as possible due to the fact that my nerves were doing their supposed jobs. I do this before every new thing. It’s really just a case of me getting my worry out before the real thing starts. I typically don’t stress too much about things, except when I don’t know what to expect.


I pictured myself in a room with either A.) a room full of super artsy, super out there writers, or B.) the teachers I knew from high school. Lucky for me, it wasn’t at all what I expected.


When I walked in I was a bit nervous, but I looked the part and did my best to be professional. Little did I know, that wasn’t necessary, but at least my first impression was a good one. When I walked in I was greeted by a room full of teachers, all different kinds of teachers. That’s one aspect of this project that I was completely wrong about. I thought that this type of further education or continuing education or whatever it is they call those sixty hours a year that teachers are required to do was specifically for English and Writing teachers. This was a room full of all different types of teachers. A few of the teachers I got to meet and know a little bit about them.


One teacher was Cindy Green, and I actually had the opportunity to do her hair after the class one day. I learned all about her job. She is a distance teacher, and her job allows her to extend all the AP classes and the classes like Medical Terminology and odd classes like that to the classrooms in more rural areas of Arkansas. These schools that don’t have to opportunity to teach classes like this because they don’t have the numbers necessary to hire a teacher now use distance learning to do it. Ms. Green may never step into the actual classrooms of these students, but she does get to know these students and offers them a wider range opportunity because of what she is doing. Even though her students don’t really get the chance to meet her in person, she told me that every year she gets more graduation invitations than she knows what to do with.


Another teacher that I learned a little bit more about was a man named Mike Rush. Mr. Rush also teaches in a different type of classroom than what I’m accustomed to. He originally taught math, but he had the opportunity to switch to a computer lab setting. This lab gives transfer students, and even failing students, the opportunity to make up what they miss out on or fail. He said something to me that really stuck, and I hope that one day I will be able to put this into practice. Mr. Rush told me about his two daughters, both of which are extremely intelligent, the type of students who don’t really need teachers, who if they wanted to could open the book and teach themselves. When he figured this out about his daughters, he told me that his whole outlook on teaching changed. He began to lump students into two categories, the ones that really needed him, and the ones that didn’t. He didn’t give any more attention to one group or another, but he did realize what his reason for being there was. To help those who really need help.


These are just two stories out of around fifteen. I didn’t get to know every teacher on a personal level, but I learned from all of them. My first job as an intern was to create an anthology of the teachers writings. I set up an email account for the Great Bear Writing Project, took submissions and began to organize and format what would become a printed version of the accomplishments of all the teachers. An account of what they learned from the class and from each other. The best part of creating this anthology was reading the submissions of these teachers. Some were poets, others novelists, and some just plain thoughtful. I read stories of these teachers experiences, in and out of the classroom, and I learned from what they wrote. I may just be an intern, but now I’m an intern with insight into what my future hopefully holds.

–CC

“Life is a pure flame, And we live by an invisible sun within us.”- Sir Thomas Browne


11 Jul
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Writing a book is hard work. A task designed for a person with focus of steel. Focus that my poor, slightly frazzled brain has trouble with. Right now, I’m in the process of “writing” my first novel. Mostly, I don’t get a great deal of writing done, however, I do find myself doing an immense amount of staring at a blank page. I’ll have an idea, write a sentence or two that I will automatically label as “crap,” or “ewww,” or sometimes I even get a “wow, that is horrible” from myself. As I hastily punch the back button on my computer’s keyboard, I wonder how I will ever be able to create a world of words, a work that is ready to take readers to an alternate reality in which they can always find a refuge.

 

This is what a book is to me: a refuge. A home away from home. I’ve fought demons, witnessed the demise of a great and powerful being. I’ve visited with elves, ridden a dragon, gone to a school of magic, and traveled the world. The world of the page often feels more like home than my home could ever be. From the time I was a young child I have always loved to read. I’ve spent many a night laying in bed, caught up in the moments of my current favorite reads. It all began when I was younger.

 

In middle school, I spent more time trying to please others and be popular ( I know, how popular can you really be in middle school?) because that is what everyone else expected me to do. I went to a small private Christian school from Kindergarten until the day that I graduated from high school. Being with the same people, having the same teachers watch you grow up is nice, but it also limits you. I was always the over achiever and I was always expected to be the over achiever. When I was in the seventh grade my life took a slight turn and I went into a rebellious stage that I’m still not quite out of. For me, this is when writing really began to stick with me, when it really became important to me.

 

I started out writing teen angst poetry that was more a rant about how my life was so sucky (even though looking back, my life was anything but sucky, try blessed). Most of my friends had a little bit of trouble with the new me; more quiet and pensive, still driven, but definitely different. By the time I was in high school, I was ski pping the classes I didn’t like and sneaking out onto the balcony in the gym to write. I wrote everything, even though at that time I thought I was definitely a poet. I experimented and read different genres. I read books like Harry Potter even though they weren’t allowed. (I was a true rebel, huh?)

 

As I got closer to graduating, I knew that literature and writing were my passions, and that is one thing that has not, and probably never will change about me. I have writer’s block, but I’m working through it, just like any normal (are there normal writers?) writer would do. I have a daily battle with myself because so many different things tempt and distract me. I’m fighting though. Every day the battle is becoming more and more one sided. I am finding my voice. I am searching for the key to unlock all the creativity that I have inside of me. And guess what? I’m getting closer every day.

 

This is the goal I have for what I write, and because my expectations are so high, I realize how difficult it will be for me to actually write something I will approve of in the beginning. I’m praying that eventually I will be moved by some god of focus so that I may be able to get somewhere with novel number 1.

Letter to Myself


30 Jun

This is what I would tell my 14 year old self if I was given the chance, however, I don’t think my fourteen year old self would listen.

Dear 14 year old self,
You lived through high school, surprisingly enough. It isn’t so bad either. Your Junior and Senior year, you only have to go half a day. That may be what saved us, or you, or the future you, I suppose. We always want information about our future, so this is what you’re getting. After high school, you make it to college. You’re tempted to make a fool of yourself on a regular basis, but most of the time your reason and good judgment win. In college, we have done some crazy things. You’ll get hurt by a friend, only to find that that hurt will lead you to something amazing. All in a single semester, you will become a different, more mature person.

Why am I telling you all of this, knowing that you will eventually find out? Because I want you to realize what I couldn’t. Everything that happens is just a building block to make you into the person that you can be happy with. Don’t grow up to fast. Don’t hate the world, because the rest of the world is standing in similar shoes to the ones you are wearing now, trying hard to become who they need to be. Spend more time doing what you love, and being who you are. Welcome to your life.
–Your older, wiser self.

It’s surprising to me that not only does this letter apply to my fourteen year old self, it also applies to my now twenty year old self. To slow down and take life as it comes at you is something that has been drilled into every young child by their parents, and this drilling was no different in my life. For some reason the lesson just doesn’t seem to stick. Instead of slowing down or just existing at a normal speed, I feel like I am constantly adding new things to my list and life’s pace seems to always be set at fast.

How do we gain control over our lives? Better yet, how do we gain control over our own choices? How do we who live life at super speed learn to say no and slow down?

Well, that is a question for another day, and another blog.

About Me


24 Jun
A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for.
–William Shedd

My name is CC, and here are a few things you might find interesting about me:


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My hair color changes sporadically. I’ve been to Ireland once, and I can’t wait to go back! I’m a city girl with a country accent that won’t go away. I love to read and write.I’m also into photography..English is my major and I have a minor in Creative Writing and I want to teach at a college level… I have my cosmetology license, and I work way to much at a salon. I have found some of my best friends in the form of coworkers. I am a Senior at UCA. I absolutely love it. I lean slightly towards reclusive, but I am what I am. I have big dreams. I’m very laid back, but not a pushover. I have strong convictions. I don’t like the way the world is, but don’t know how to change it. I live for a good book and a cup of coffee or tea. I have a list of things that I want to do before I die, a really long list…I can’t wait to get to heaven. I love to smile and laugh, and hate being in a bad mood. When I am in a bad mood, it is typically because my OCD has kicked in. My family is crazy, but I wouldn’t want them to be any other way. I refuse to change for the people around me. I am who I am, and I will change myself when I see that I need to. Stupid people tick me off, but it’s even worse when they are pretending. Being mean just for the heck of it is a sign of either incompetence or jealousy, I’m not sure which. Sometimes, I’m my own enemy. It happens though, right?


*Likes* Reading, writing, taking pictures, rain, sun, SNOW!, painting my fingernails, doing hair, meeting new people, working, running, playing games, eating, teaching, tutoring, books, poetry, sweet songs, stressful situations, a clean room, my dog, someone actually understanding what I’m talking about when i get excited, Someone understanding when I start asking myself question after question until I figure out the answer without trying to tell me the answer, adrenaline rushes, screaming songs, life, Shakespeare, the Blues, driving fast, QUOTES…

CC Riley

"A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for." –William Shedd